very upset

its 3.40am, i went to bed at 3am thinking that jeese, im soo tired after only having 3hrs of sleep the night b4 so i think i can finally get some decent sleep without the tossing in bed for 2-3hrs b4 eventually dosing off. but no, i STILL end up tossing cos my brain wldnt stop, tho somehow when i think of the swarovski proj im suppose to do, im instantly a tad more sleepy. for real! n then once the 'moment' is gone, im back to tossing. tho i did try to constantly think of swarovski, but after awhile, it lost effect...so after 30mins of tossing thot im seriously dead beat, i gave up, gotout of bed, pom a can of kopi, n im back to work.. hopefully i can chopchop get it over n done with, so i can sleep for real.
oh shit, i know whats gonna happen later... when im done with work, n do warrent myself some sleep, ill be awake thanks to the kopi, n then ill stil #$^%$#%% wont be able to sleep.
kil me . pls.

for a wk now, if i get any sleep, its thanks to the 2 muscle relaxant pills thats suppose to be for my back, but now it has a new use for it, to help me sleep cos it one of those make-u-drousy pills.

ok back to work